wearing my emotions on my sleeve....

as many know the story of my mother... many don't... so before I go into this chapter... understand that I love her... I don't always like her and she has a tendency to be very mean... but since her last hospital stay a while back she has been very different... most of the time...

with that being said... Mother is back in the hospital... with CHF (congestive heart failure) again.



In the past month I have probably had one of the best conversations I have had in my life with mom, and she has gone over board to be nice to and help my kids (by sending them ALOT of money ) their Christmas and birthday presents already which in Cory's and Stephanie's case bought them a new washer and vacuum for their new house ... for Martha... well I am scared as to where she will spend hers but more than likely on her car... and the card that the checks came in ... was no guilt trips, no ugliness, no meanness, none of the usual from mom... even Martha commented on it....



Anyway I am grateful that she has been acting different but (all you nurses out there can FEEL where this is going right) the DON and I both have this feeling (she brought it up to me today with out knowing I had said it to my aunt the other week)



anyway.... Its not a good feeling and I have wondered for several YEARS how mom manages to come back from these things that a NORMAL person would have died from long ago... so now its time to call and get her update and I will come back here to post what I find out....

well its several hours later... mom talked an hour and would still be yakking if I had not told her I HAD to go...

she is still some what short of breath she is on 3 lpm of O2 and high doses 80 mg BID of Lasix ... with very good out put; her electrolytes are out of whack but, again I am not surprised...

her nurse seems to be of good heart but little nursing sense... and I so don't have the heart to tell her I am a nurse... and know more about what shes talking about than she did.

Sigh, I hate when moms in the hospital... cause getting info is hard...

ALSO.... either the DON or mom are having issues telling the truth and in this particular case I don't think it is mom... the DON said they tried to get mom to go to the ER and that mom refused... to which I politely reminded her that My phone is always on and even if mother refused (which mother would not cause she loves the attention of being in the ER) I am her guardian and they need to call me as mother is legally incompetent... SO THERE... BLAH.... and when i asked mom she adamantly denied being asked about the ER cause she would have gone ... in her own words "I was the one complaining about being sick and they would not do anything YES I would have gone to the ER"...

so on goes the drama of my life and dealings with my mother from afar...

Martha is home from work... it is nearly one am and we are going to go to the fair tomorrow durring the day as we have Bradley at 4 pm tomorrow.... so I am beat and ready to sleep ... Have a wonderful weekend and thanks for putting up with more in the continuing saga of my life...
PS... FATHER? DOD? OLD FART? where are you? is your phone broke? your computer down? you got broken fingers??? I have tried to call and nada.... has Jordan shared the swine flu with you guys??? is he better? Inquiring minds NEED to know.... love ya :) DYD!