talking to you is like talking to a brick wall... so maybe by putting into writing you can read pay attention and absorbe what I am trying to tell you.
1.NO your dad does not want to meet your boyfriend/ baby daddy/ whatever you choose to call him today.
a. yes he is black
b. he has done nothing to give your father reason to want to meet him (you have gone DOWN to his level he has NOT come up to yours)
c. you dads beliefs and feelings have not changed since the day 12-27-09 that you walked out of our house into his.
d. I TOLD YOU AND MIKE IF you ever expect your dad to change his beliefs you have to prove him wrong. so far you have only proven him right.
e. yes your dad loves you, but he does not do what he does as in allowing you to come to our house to wash your clothing, to eat supper, to hang out, to spend the night because of YOU... he does it because of his love for ME.
2. Please figure out that I make my self available to be used by you (yes by your brother as well) because i choose to. I should be out working saving money so that when your dad is ready we can afford for him to retire.
a. In case you never noticed I take from what should be your fathers and mine to see to it that you and your brothers child have what you need and alot of times what you WANT instead of what we want and should have.
b. I usually do not complain or fuss about it ... UNTIL i am feeling very abused. I ask you ALL to NOT make me feel abused and used.
3. PAY ATTENTION TO THIS PART IF NONE OTHER ....
you may stay in my house as long as necessary HOWEVER you will NOT run your mouth at me, you will not BLAME me for your decisions and the consequenses that come with those decisions, MIKE IS NOT welcome here and I do not have to justify or defend that decision.
Bradley and Halo are NOT you and your brother and If I so desire I will buy, spend time with and do whatever I see fit and I DO NOT HAVE TO JUSTIFY OR DEFEND ANYTHING I DO FOR AND ABOUT THEM TO YOU OR ANYONE!
accept and understand that the ONLY reason and way that I can do what I do for you and your brothers family is because of WHAT YOUR DAD DOES FOR ME!
so dont EVER try to tell me he does not care or he is judgemental or wrong for feeling as he feels... YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TRUE LOVE IS. yet.
now all that being said I have stuff to do today and the ball is in your court so to speak... you can decided what you want to do where you want to go and how you want to live your life... because I WILL ALLOW YOU THE RIGHT TO FUCK UP YOUR LIFE JUST AS BADLEY AS YOU WANT OR TO MAKE IT A GREAT LIFE IF YOU ARE WILLING TO PUT INTO IT WHAT IT TAKES.
with much love and consideration MOM
to my few readers who still come around... I am sorry that you get to be drug into the ugly side of life but this is apparently the ONLY way to communicate with my child.
please do keep our family in your prayers... and I DO NOT expect any of you to pick or choose sides so to speak... you may comment if you choose or not thats all good too... EVERYONE has good and bad and when living life it comes down to what YOU as an individual choose to live. so with that being said... Carry on :) love and hugs to all.
Hot Corn Dip
2 hours ago
13 words of wisdom:
Hang in there Momma...I fell ya on this subject and stand with you in solidarity.
Sending love and hugs.
APPLAUSE. Amen, Sister. They just don't get it and unfortunately sometimes need to hear it LOUDLY!!
With a few changes those could be my words the past 2 weeks. Daughter Drama has run rampant and the last week of them being gone has been BLISS. Unfortunately KJ has to have surgery and they will be back tomorrow. There is hope on the horizon as they have found a place to live in Richmond, KJ can get her old job back and Kelli has some connections so come January 2011 KJ should be recovered and we will all have our own homes and happiness. I keep you in my daily prayers and support you in all ways. Never let anything come between you and Mike. Will call soon. My cell is off for now but my landline ends in the numbers 4050 so if you get a call with 618 area code and those numbers it is me. Love you.
no comment.
i take it back i do have a comment because i am angry...i am very angry. I DO NOT USE OR ABUSE YOU. All i ask of you is to get me where i need to be which i do pay for your gas in my own way. Yes, i use your washing machine on saturdays-for that i apologize. I don't ask you for much. I don't ask you to pay my bills- or for money- i owe you a running total of around 350.00 dollars-which i keep good track of because i DONT want to use or ABUSE you. 90 percent of the money i owe you is from minutes on a phone so i could keep in contact with YOU and MY JOB...but you don't consider that i don't care to take from you. that i never have cared to take from you. i take your time---which words from the horses mouth state, "if you weren't here i'd be bored." so your time is somethin you are willing to give. i don't appreciate the fact that you were willing to keep secrets with MY BOYFRIEND about ME. weather it be heat of the moment, childish,weather he meant it or not,that does NOT make it okay to hide. and i think ANYONE would feel the same.
so there i am mad at you. and it's not BLAMING you---i never said ITS YOUR FAULT THIS HAPPENED TO ME...because it isn't. but you interpret things your own way every time no matter the intent of the speaker.I won't have it thrown in my face that my boyfriend and i fight-in what relationship on this planet do couples not fight. i have bear(ed)? witness to many a fight in your home...no one is able to judge. no one is perfect---and to your readers:
i won't apologize for the offense-I AM NOT SORRY. you wanna read about people's lives? well here it is. THIS IS LIFE. REAL HONEST TO GOODNESS TRUE TO THE LORD LIFE. people fight and argue and make threats and say plenty of things they dont mean along with plenty of things they do. Here in the house of Hall- this fighting thing is pretty regular. IM MAD. and as a "Hall Child" i have to let it be known i'm mad. (apparently we have some sort of anger issue in our blood stream...somewhat violent in nature i guess. i think it's bull)but anyways-the truth is it's ALL rather ridiculous. AND TO GA POWER:God i hope one of you readers is some sort of representative...You are an awful company who pay people to become numb and heartless. there is no compassion. nothing. first of all you charge for what is neccessity-outrageously charge-ask a ga power representative if they can afford a $1600 power bill a month for two months-even though I show intent to pay my bill in full by paying EVERY EFFIN WEEK-they still cut my power off. EFF YEW GA POWER-EFF YEW. you tear families apart.
& that is all i have to say about that.
FLIPPIN EFFIN ANGRY EMJAY
Laura--I feel so badly for you-and wish I could help somehow. Can only pray that this situation gets better.
Please take care of you and your Mike!! My husband would probably have had a coronary if he'd had to deal with all this!
I imagine MJ would like to go back a few years and be able to change some decisions, but we can't go back--we can only go forward.
You must be a very strong woman to put up with all this, Laura, and to try to be on everyone's side! It's always the moms that get caught in the middle, isn't it.
Big Hugs and Prayers for both of you. You are right Emmie... this is real life. It sucks sometimes. And... other times it doesn't. I really am praying for y'all.
Laura, keeping you in my prayers. Dont worry a thing about putting this on your blog. Whatever works...
love and hugs to you Peach, and prayers for the family...
Oh Peach, I'm so sorry about all of this....
"How sharper than a serpent's tooth it is to have a thankless child."
~Shakespeare~
Sorry, MJ, you really don't have a platform to speak from.
Someday you'll realize this - at 18 you're too young to do anything other than to LEARN...well and to make babies.
Oh, and MJ...where in the world would you be without the help you mama and papa are giving you???
Good Sweet Lord. Sending you all the strength I have to give.
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